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Well I've had a pretty interesting week. Ashton has gained 2 pounds since birth and he is just three weeks old. He has red hair and we think green eyes. I have brown hair and his father has blond so the red is really out of place. It makes him look so cute. My tutors are OK. I'd really rather be back in school. I'm so beyond bored at my house. This weekend is going to be so bad. I have to get my wisdom teeth removed on Saturday. I hope it dosent hurt to bad. I'm so behind in all the latest gossip hehehe. Just kidding. I really want to go play in the snow but i can;t because of the baby. But i do plan to hit my sis with a snowball. Last snow day my bf put snow down her pants it was to funny. I died laughing. Well that's pretty much it. Bye Bye

as the rain falls

I see you in the rain
It's dripping down your face
I long to hold you
To shelter you from the rain
But you push me away
And step back into the rain
I see it's not rain on your face
It's your tears
I was foolish not to see
The hurt behind your eyes
So you stand in the rain
Crying to yourself
Hoping no one notices
But i notice
Because i'm right next to you
In the rain
Getting soaked by the rain
I just wish you would come back
I long to hold you
To shelter you from the rain
But you push me away
I just wish i had noticed earlier
For even as the rain falls
I love you

Well this home bound stuff is really boring. I have caught up on my reading though. It's kinda wierd not getting up at 5 anymore. Well my room is a complete mess and it's not getting any better the more i clean. I'm helping my sis get dressed for formal today. I bought her a necklace. It's a heart with little rinstones on the bottom. It looks good with her dress. I hope she has fun

apology poem

I've stolen
The shirt
You want to wear

I took
It out
Of your closet

The silk
Feels good
Against my skin

It moves
So nice
When I dance

Bed rest sucks. Im so bored that i have nothing to do. All i can do is lay in bed or lay on the couch. My bed side teachers are nice but i cant stand only having them once a week. Im getting so far behind in my classes. Im out till march 3rd so im so scared of not making the grades to graduate with my class. My math teacher confused the hell out of me when she taught me about foils. Im thinking in my head that i dont understand a word your saying. Ive got so much homework that im pretty much drownng in papers.

Bad experiences

Well tonight has been rather interesting. I had to drive my sister and her friend home from stop and shop. The original drivers got into a fight and walked off. I think im an ok driver but i had never driven with out my parents or an adult in the car. I was so scared that something would happen. I was scared that if something happened i would have to tell the mother of my sisters friend that i hurt her daughter. Then when the two showed up at my house, they acted like i was at fault because i didnt see them on the side of the road. I just could not believe that. Im just so done for tonight. Ive had enough driving for a long while. Well night night.

It's because of you

This is a summary. This is just a poem it's not based on real life cutting. The emotions are real the other part is thoughts





It's because of you that
I crumble when I walk

It's because of you that
I want to take my life

It's because of you that
I hold so much pain

It's because of you that
I die when I see your face

It's because of you that
I sit here tonight

It's because of you that
The blade feels so right

It's because of you that
I feel such pain

It's because of you that
I take my life

It's because of you that
I'm bleeding on the floor

It's because of you that
I can't seem to breath

It's because of you that
I fall to my knees

It's because of you that
I can't take this pain

It's because of you that
I take my life

It's because of you that
My life comes to an end

It's because of you that
I say farewell my friend

It's because of you that
I love you so much

It's because of you that
We ended this way

It's because of you that
I spend sleep less nights

It's because of you that
I take my life